To: You.

Don't be surprised if im texting very coldly to you.

Well, ya see..

Like i already said, i felt unimportant to you.

Things that are happening are adding to it more.

If you actually comes to my blog and read this post.

I will be surprise..

cause i didn't know that you even bothers to come to my blog.

All the "...." texts im sending you..

Is fucking better than me not replying at all.

so you better appreciate it.

I just don't want to stop the conovo.

Hah. Do you find it hard talking to me now?

The mood swings i get is all all because of you.

The tears that are flowing down now are all because of you.

You can't even see the difference in my texts whether im happy anot.

Lol! What's wrong with me?!

hoping the wish i've been wishing that will come true.

Even though i know it won't.

Gosh.. i should just bloody forget about you.

Why the hell did i give you so many chances for

and end up hurting myself?!

Yeah giving so much chances till now

IM FUCKING WASTING TEARS ON YOU.

I've been trying my best to make things not so difficult for you.

And yet?

Nothing.. I BLOODY GOT NOTHING.

Super fucked up now.

Bet you didn't know

in my texts

and how you replied just know,

was a decision whether to forget 'bout you.

Wanna know the answer?

IT'S FORGET ABOUT YOU.

im gonna try to forget about you.

im gonna try to pretend that you never existed in my world.

im gonna try to pretend that i never once liked you.

I still don't get it myself,

which part of you make me wanna like you?!

One day if i suddenly stop texting you..

don't get shock.

expect it.

Learn to appreciate stuff! _|_

If i only could have that chance.. i'll make good use of it.

I Love you,

not only for what you are,

but for what i am when

i am with you.

-Roy Croft.

Well, i guess this is the place where i plant my

memories,

flashbacks,

playbacks,

thoughts,

and words that i don't know how to say it out.

Sigh..

i really hate having mood swings.

i really hate being angry at you

just realise my mind likes to think alot during night time.

im sorry if my mood is affecting you.

But i guess not..

I don't even think it would affect you even 0.0000000001%

The same wishes i've been wishing

wonder when would it even come true.. :(

Tried faking smiles..

But really can't do it..

Even if i am or not.

It doesn't matter to you?

If im faking smiles,

you probably wouldn't know at all.

Haha..

i'll try to be happy no matter what.

More than a friend, less than a crush.

So, i guess you were one of those people who were supposed to walk into my life, teach me a lesson, and then walk away.

I have no idea why im posting this post for you..

but anyway..

You came into my life on that day when i was kinda down.

Love the times when we were close..

although it's only a few days things happen..

i really appreciated those times..

You taught me not to be a person who gossip about others,

told me that if i want to let out some thoughts about others,

i could always find you..

You taught me to be a better person to myself,

as you think im treating myself really bad.

You know, without any hesitation,

i was willing to change.

Not because of you,

but because i don't want to be a person,

which people are gonna dislike.

But now, we hardly talk.

I keep my thoughts to myself.

Wanting to let it go,

but i know i should'nt.

It's been awhile those thoughts are still in me,

really need to listening ear.

But i guess no one bothers.

Those thoughts had really kill my mood everytime i think about.

Sometimes, i wonder if is there anyone who will always be there for me.

Well, i really hate it whenver people misunderstand me..

That friday, before everything happens.

If i knew that was

the last time i actually was that close to you..

Seeing that smile on your face.

Thosecrazy moves you do..

I'll would have treasure every single moment.

Now, everything changed.

From friends, we became stangers..

It's like i hardly know your name now..

Wondering what for im typing all this for you..

Wasting teardrops for you..

Doubt you will see this post anyway..

If i can change back things..

I would rather not know you..

because it's like im the one who cause

so much difficulties for you...

Sarang Haeyo..

piggy~

To my dear wanning :D

No matter how much time you really piss me off,

make me angry,

i never want to lose you.

Cause you are important to me in some ways,

i don't wanna lose a friend like you.

It really hurts alot to see you cut yourself,

emo or cry.

i don't want to see that kind of stuff happening to you.

Sometimes, i said things that i don't really mean it,

cause i thought that you will stop doing stupid stuff to yourself.

But i guess not, it wasn't that easy.

Seriously, you should stop hurting yourself because of those stuff.

Its not worth it alright?

If you want to talk to anyone,

just come and find me :)

I promise i will be there to listen and not speak.

I promise i will hold you up whenever you're breaking down.

I promise i will be a true friend that you could trust.

Please don't think that you're always doing stuff alone,

going through hard time alone,

cause there's someone who really cares for you,

who wants to help you out.
I know, and i can tell that you are trying to fit in with everyone,
and i know it's hard, cause i know how does it feels like.
Don't worry, be yourself.
And the next thing you know you have alots of good friends.
But remember to look out for those friends who are using you,
don't over trust someone okay ^^
Don't let anyone, anybody hurt you and your feelings anymore.
Be strong and happy :)
Wanning, if you know that some people don't like you.
You can just ignore them,
cause you know not everyone in this world hates you.
There are billions of people in this world,
surely one of them love you for who you are.
Don't try to be or act like someone.
If you want the problem to be solve or anything,
don't lie, don't make up stories..
cause if not, people will lose the trust in you.
Promise me, be honest about everything.
Be honest, even if it hurts.

No matter what happens, don't let our friendship be broken.

Nor let others affect us.

Cause you have me and i have you.

You're a great person ^^

Love,

Sheena.

P.S Is any teardrops flowing down your cheeks? Hehehe im so bhb :D Go get a tissue and clean it up! Stay happy!

Replay..

Boys and Girls - LMC

I was awesome-ly bored..

And read my very first post to the very recent post on my livejournal.

sigh.. those memories, those flashbacks came back while reading.. :(
those secret posts.. words.. lines.. lyrics..
I remember those time when i use to find sweet lyrics just for my dear you..
Pictures that are in my posts <3
Hugs, kisses, tickles, nicknames..

Just realised that we love scaring each other huh..
While reading those posts.. i have this urge to cry..
and now.. teardrops are falling down..

plus the songs im hearing are all songs that reminded me of you..

So much for putting it on shuffle..

Have you forgotten our promises?
Have you forgotten the things you said?
Have you forgotten our past?
one of them is about not forgetting me..
you said you won't hate me..
You always ask me to smile more..
You always say you need me to smile..
I tried..
but you're constanly breaking the trust and my heart everytime.

You know that stuff was gonna hurt me and my feelings.
You know i will pretend to be strong, but weak inside..
Why did you do such stupid stuff..

Can i get just one text you now?

Really wish you didn't change.. i hate the new you.

But even though i hated you so much now..
i never though of wanting to lose you..

Since that day we stop talking..
i never been really really happy at all..
None of that was a true true smile..
13 ~ 6